Don't come for me

Hey ,
Do you have dreams where you’re in the same reoccurring theme? Dreams that you’ve been trying to unravel for a long time? I become curious as to what my mind is trying to tell me. Sometimes I have dreams that have pretty clear messages or relate to what I experienced that day but then there are dreams that repeat the same themes again and again.
For example, I have dreams with the reoccurring theme of being chased. In the most recent version of this dream I was hiding in a game of hide and seek and as the people got closer to me I’d run and hide again. Typically in these dreams the thing that is chasing me is a threat and I feel I am in real danger. This time the threat was not as high as in previous dreams. For instance I’d be running from an entity that has been trying to hurt me or put me in some sort of confinement. I’ve been having this theme of dreams ever since I was young. I’d wake terrified that I am unsafe. It reminds me of the hiding I did as a child or how each day I had the sensation of someone chasing me as I walked up the stairs.

In this most recent version of the dream It felt like acquaintances chasing after me. Which this time I found to be somewhat interesting when I woke up. I had been trying to “figure out” what I’ve been running from in my past dreams and why I believed I could not face what it was that haunted me every time and it forced me to keep running never staying in one place. Over time I’ve noticed the threat in these thematic dreams has become less scary, and more familiar in a sense.

I believe there is some work we all need to do on dismantling the colonization of our brains. Have you ever been afraid of parts of yourself and judge those parts so harshly because they would get you in trouble in social situations or with family at a young age? After considering that these dreams may be a metaphor (where I’m running away from parts of myself) I’m noticing that as I continue to work on my inner world and internal family system the threat in these dreams becomes less dangerous and I don’t feel as scared when I am in hiding in the dreamscape. Although it could also be the increase of courage that I’m building so I can confront what scares me.

So, if you have any insight into what it means to be running away or hiding from an unknown threat in the dreamscape- I would like to hear it. It is tiring to keep running. Sometimes I want to stop and confront it, but from my gut I hear not to, that confronting the threat will mean I get caught. I’m not sure what it is that I’m worried of being “caught with” if I do confront this thing but I hope it’s nothing to be afraid of. In fact I bet it is nothing to be afraid of and the little girl in me is just trying to communicate to me that I need to be careful. But I’d want her to know bad things might not happen, and while things may repeat themselves, there is also a chance for nuance.

Be good and good luck,
Allison